Colorgenitics results

SO I stumbled across this site that can tell you about yourself just by clicking colors in order of preference... my results were pretty accurate LOL.. its funny because the results of most tests i take i am usually very happy and poeple love me ....which is true..... this one apparently tells me i am in some kind of turmoil.....which is true....
but check it out
http://www.goldinuniverse.com/ <~~ yea its like that untill i can figure out how to make a link



Name: Aletha
Date: 8/22/2009
Colorgenics Number: 62541307


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You are under considerable stress and you are almost about to 'blow your top' but you are fortunate enough to be able to exert control. Control is the name of the game and it is so good to realise that whatever the situation may be a this time - it will pass. You need to get away from everything for a while and if you do, you will find that, strangely enough, it will seem that most of your problems and situations will seem to wash away, just as the sea may wash away 'footprints' in the sand.

You are looking for something different. Your imagination has been working overtime and you are seeking adventure - and you'd like to share that adventure, the new experience, with someone like yourself: Imaginative, Enthusiastic and Sensitive.

You feel unhappy because you feel that you are not able to obtain the co-operation of those around you. All you would like at this time would be to achieve harmony within your circle.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality.




HA! damn...

me and my bad english

hmm so this looks like a safe place to store my blogs.. it doesnt look like blogspot is going anywhere anytime soon so yea.. Dont shun me when u see my grammar errors and bad spelling.. actually i dont really care..

Ive been 27 for about 3 months and so far it tastes okay.. meh

this blog is to document my journey, my hobbies, ppl i meet, things i do.. u know regular blog stuff.

there are no morales to my stories.. unless my last blog is like on my death bed or something..

have fun!
~Aletha

My NOT TO DO list for 2009 revised... its the 6 month mark

So 6 months has gone by.. well not really cuz its June still but you get what im trying to say..
Anywho! I was cleaning my apartment and this old note crossed my mind and i wanted to see if I was really keeping up with the list i made in january... well here it goes....

first and foremost i said i will do something everyday to make myself happy... and guess what.. im happy lol so everyday ive done something even if it was just playing music and dancing in my room.. EVERYDAY ive done something to make myself smile....

1. I won’t let negative people ruin my day.. as a matter of fact I will eliminate all the negative people out of my life.. I started this in 2008 but clearly it takes longer than a year to purge the rotten apples…
UPDATE: So far so good! and its funny because i havent had to do any work...people just eliminate themselves on their own stupidness!.. thank goodness because im am so nonconfrontational..

2. I wont worry about the things I cant control…ill just pray about it and let it go.
I struggled a little with this one because i still have a strong hold on my life.. like im the God of me or something LOL But slowly surely!! we will see where i am at the end of the year!

3. I wont worry about how I affect other peoples self esteem…ive been doing this since I was a child.. I make myself appear not as smart or pretty so that people wont hate on me… yes im smart, pretty, and I make more money then you..get over it
Thank goodness this is on the list because i have been doing just that! I feel so much better about myself and my self esteem is right where it should be.... yall should try this

4. I wont keep myself from buying pretty things for my apartment because I think ill be moving soon… lol im a weirdo.. no furniture and ive been in Cleveland a year and a half.. but for some reason I convince myself to not buy stuff cuz I think ill move tomorrow..
ok....shame on me... my apartment is still empty.. i still feel like ill moce any second!!! Gesh! i dont even knwo what to do about it... lawd a mercy!

5. I wont eat out every freakin day.. I love restaurants but this girl can cook!!! Might as well take advantage of it
I LOVE my cooking.. i am eating sooo good and loosing weight at the same time.. and those of you who know me know i am seriously ANTI DIET but u know what? for me cooking helps me stay healthier.. and i have this great cook book... AND I AM WAITING ON A CERTAIN SOMEONE TO GIVE ME RECIPIES LOL

6. I wont neglect friends…I love yall.. I told one friend “ Im not always around.. but im here for you always” and its true I may not know where my phone is when u call but if I get a text/voicemail saying u need me I am there! but i know I need to do better wich leads me to my next one..
okay i wont say i am all the way there with this one but i am doing alot better than before..Ive hung out with my friends i even visited a friend all the way in iowa! but thank heavens for text messaging!!!

7. I wont “hibernate” anymore…… I am good for disappearing for months at a time and then popping up like nothing happened… mostly because I need time for myself and then I get overindulgent .. its not my fault I like ME!! But ill do better in 09
I can say i havent been in hibernation mode this year! YAY but i have been ejoying my ME TIME a whole lot.. but i love my friends and will never pass up a chance to hang out.

8. I wont be scared to do things that will take me out of my comfort zone… like start that nobcche chapter in Cleveland….i hate talking in front of people!!!
okay shame on me but i have been DEEP in my comfort zone alll year!!! sigh... let me get it together.... and i know i need to do this because cleveland needs it... even thinking of it makes me nervous!!! geez!

9. I wont obsess about how I will fit everything I want to do in my life before I die… babies, nobel prize, buy a house, start a business, fall in love…. And the incan calendar ended in 2012!? yikes!!!
Okay i havent really worried about this stuff anymore.. I am just enjoying my life and trusting that God will fit the pieces together as i go along.. the thought still kinda freaks me out tho.. but im not gona think about it * shakes head* no no no

10. I wont take myself so seriously… life is too short…see ,there I go again
Whoot WHoot! i play everyday!!!

holy shit!

2008 was a bastard of a year for me, but with bad comes good and at least I can say that I really learned what I was made of in 2008.. it began with a monumental heartbreak. The man that I was with for almost 3 years and in love with… DEEPLY in love with broke up with me when I moved from ....Atlanta.... to ....Cleveland.... I was floored and spent all of 2008 fighting to get over it..it was really hard because I couldn’t see anything bad in him he was pretty much perfect I even loved his flaws (corny but true) at first I was a straight zombie I woke up, cried dressed cried drove to work crying.. I couldn’t concentrate at work and had to face prejustice ppl while there..lunch I would sit in my car and call him and cry then I would drive home crying and when I got home I didn’t eat, I didn’t clean, I didn’t do anything really, I slept on the floor for months.. I guess the good thing is that my bank account was PHAT because I never bought anything lol.. but it was crazy .. I finally graduated and got my dream job, and I couldn’t enjoy it because my dream man didn’t want me..and I couldn’t understand why! I flew to ....Atlanta.... to see him and when we were together it was like normal..like we were in love again.. I thought that maybe he thought I was going to leave and change and I wanted him to see that I was still Aletha, still the woman that loved him.. but when I left I went back to crying because he still didn’t want me.. he came to visit me a few months later and we drove to see my parents in ....Cincinnati......in the car he told me he didn’t love me anymore and I was broken..he acted like he loved me but what he was saying was totally different.. I was confused and torn.. eventually, after several attempts to get him out of my system I totally cut him loose.. I prayed for him to be happy and for me to accept whatever will become of our relationship..i still thought about him often but I was determined not to contact him…it wasn’t hard because he didn’t contact me at all.. 2008 came to a end and I decided that I would send him a email.. besides I had been a good girl he was still the last person I had sex with and I hadn’t dated anyone since… it was a friendly “ just checking to see if you are alive” email and he replied that he was engaged…I wailed for about 2 hours to my mother..i am sure my windows were rattleing. It was truly a “holy shit” moment… so that evening after being depressed all damn day I checked his email to figure out who he was engaged to.. come to find out it was a young lady he introduced me to.. I read emails where he talked about how in love he was and happy he is with her.. ironically it made me feel better to know that he was happy.. I always want him to be happy… but when I found out he was dating her a month before he broke up with me.. basically a few weeks after I left Atlanta...., I was floored.. I would of never thought that he would do that and here I am no sex not even a boyfriend and he is engaged! I was a victim of a serial monognomist, someone who is in relationship after relationship with no in between… Lol… well it was a blessing because it made it that much easier for me to totally let him go..i don’t hate him.. I want him to be happy..and if he is happy I am happy for him..but if that woman hurts him I will whoop her ass lol.. that’s my 2008 lol



The best part of 2008 was that I was surrounded with people who became my friends who I totally love to death.. I would of never been reunited with my highschool friend if I didn’t move to Cleveland she was really one of the reasons I could smile… my other coworker turned friend kept me sane in 2008 she was and is a safe haven for me to hide away when I feel like crap.. and when I feel like crap these 2 friends are the realist you can get hands down the best part of 2008 is them and the fact that I could visit my parents anytime because I was only 5 hours away. 2008 beat me to a pulp but I came out alive and what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.. and I am stronger.. I may be scar ed but im happy now and ive vowed to do something that will make me happy everyday in 2009.. getting this off my chest made me happy today I am still great and I will be okay!